Yesterday was my birthday... ;)... Hmmm, what's my age again? Seriously, I will never act my age.
Anyways, first of all, thousand apologies to my girlfriends because I could not go out with them yesterday. My family asked me out and also it's was my busy week. Exams and assignments. Cik mah's family and our family went out to together to IMM. And, I got a present ;)... Canon EOS 1000D... Later can testing, testing. Wanted a Nikon but I familiarize myself with Canon already. Think about it, school and friends are using Canon so it will be easier for me to borrow equipments, lens and stuff.
Today, delivering of Plasma LCD TV. Yup, Dad bought like last week. 40" LCD. Get free 25" and compact camera. And also , my parents bought my brother PS3. Wait for the tv, then set up PS3... haha... game on. Then I will forget to do my assigment :)...
Rezeki family.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
Change
When I asked him, to sit at home and just talked to me on the phone. His reply was, "Kalau kol pun tak de pape nak bebual".
I was upset but did not show it. We used to talk on the phone almost every night, even though there was 5 minutes silence, not talking. We would watched tv and laughed over the phone. Commenting on the show and stuff. When I called late, he would text me. 2130hr was the time I would always call. He would asked kenape kol lambat lah, ni lah, tu lah... haha... then later I would asked him to change channel to watch some funny show. And we would laughed so hard. :)
I just need one request from him. For that one day in one week, just one day, be at home and talk on the phone. I didn't know that request was so hard to fulfill. I'm mad. Am totally mad. Yesterday he picked me up from work and asked whether I want to spend time with him. I said NO! Here's the thing, when I'm mad, he will start to call, asking whether I've eaten and stuff. Are you free on this day or that. Whatever. And when everything's ok, it will be the same all over again.
His making no effort whatsoever. I don't need a boyfriend has a car, money or bike. I need someone with time.
Love,
nUr
I was upset but did not show it. We used to talk on the phone almost every night, even though there was 5 minutes silence, not talking. We would watched tv and laughed over the phone. Commenting on the show and stuff. When I called late, he would text me. 2130hr was the time I would always call. He would asked kenape kol lambat lah, ni lah, tu lah... haha... then later I would asked him to change channel to watch some funny show. And we would laughed so hard. :)
I just need one request from him. For that one day in one week, just one day, be at home and talk on the phone. I didn't know that request was so hard to fulfill. I'm mad. Am totally mad. Yesterday he picked me up from work and asked whether I want to spend time with him. I said NO! Here's the thing, when I'm mad, he will start to call, asking whether I've eaten and stuff. Are you free on this day or that. Whatever. And when everything's ok, it will be the same all over again.
His making no effort whatsoever. I don't need a boyfriend has a car, money or bike. I need someone with time.
Love,
nUr
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Untitled
In school. Finishing my project. Wanted to take a rest first. I'm gonna be very busy. No holidays for me. Got ITP at Tanjong Pagar at some interior design company.
My birthday coming soon. And my boyfriend is going oversea. A last minute thing. So no celebration with him. If anyone had a plan and ask me along, let's say on 2 March, I will turn that person down flatly. No second thought. Why? Because it's my boyfriend's birthday. I won't say much. But it just that girls do take anniversaries and birthdays seriously. Sometimes. So I have a plan of my own.
So, don't expect me to go out before or after my birthday. Only exceptional to my girlfriends. I think I sacrifice my time, work and school alot. I know no one asked me to. So, I'm glad for my second year, I'll be very busy. I'll be working from Monday to Saturday, 9am to 6pm. Keep my mind occupy. And my boyfriend can have many, many more times with his friends. Double and triple the times.
See, the problem with me is that it's so hard for me to communicate with my boyfriend. I don't know why it's hard for me to tell him how I felt. Maybe I'm just too tired or just too lazy or hate if there's an argument. Poor Ayun. Then he will be clueless as to why I'm mad at him. Now I know why. Because if I told and be mad at him, it will still be the same. This thing will happen all over again. All he can say is sorry and blah blah blah. He only talk the talk but I need him to walk the talk. So why waste energy being mad.
So this tells me that I have to appreciate my friends. If you a girl, do appreciate your GIRLFRIENDS!! Heck care about your boyfriend. When anything goes wrong, it's your GIRLFRIENDS that will be there for you. Remember, your GIRLFRIENDS!!!! I'm reminding myself too so in future I won't abandon my GIRLFRIENDS for my boyfriend.
Love,
nUr
My birthday coming soon. And my boyfriend is going oversea. A last minute thing. So no celebration with him. If anyone had a plan and ask me along, let's say on 2 March, I will turn that person down flatly. No second thought. Why? Because it's my boyfriend's birthday. I won't say much. But it just that girls do take anniversaries and birthdays seriously. Sometimes. So I have a plan of my own.
So, don't expect me to go out before or after my birthday. Only exceptional to my girlfriends. I think I sacrifice my time, work and school alot. I know no one asked me to. So, I'm glad for my second year, I'll be very busy. I'll be working from Monday to Saturday, 9am to 6pm. Keep my mind occupy. And my boyfriend can have many, many more times with his friends. Double and triple the times.
See, the problem with me is that it's so hard for me to communicate with my boyfriend. I don't know why it's hard for me to tell him how I felt. Maybe I'm just too tired or just too lazy or hate if there's an argument. Poor Ayun. Then he will be clueless as to why I'm mad at him. Now I know why. Because if I told and be mad at him, it will still be the same. This thing will happen all over again. All he can say is sorry and blah blah blah. He only talk the talk but I need him to walk the talk. So why waste energy being mad.
So this tells me that I have to appreciate my friends. If you a girl, do appreciate your GIRLFRIENDS!! Heck care about your boyfriend. When anything goes wrong, it's your GIRLFRIENDS that will be there for you. Remember, your GIRLFRIENDS!!!! I'm reminding myself too so in future I won't abandon my GIRLFRIENDS for my boyfriend.
Love,
nUr
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Regrets
Never regret the mistakes you made. Because without it, you will never learn. So whenever I think back, no matter what mistakes or whatever decisions I made, I learn from it.
But I think there was one mistake I made and I regret it. And that mistake was to let my Ayun smoke. He asked me permission to smoke in front of me. I was fed-up, dah malas nak layan, this and that, I said go ahead. It was all because I malas nak layan. Dah malas nak care. From 1 to 2. Then that one day, 4 sticks. Like half an hour apart? My fault. I should have been strict.
I still don't like it when Ayun smokes in front of me. I will be mad if I saw him smoke or saw a cig pack inside his pocket or under the bike's seat. Bile kene tegur je, nanti boring ngan orang. It shows that I still care right? Since sometimes he doesn't care about howI feel, then I think should stop caring. Sometimes he just brushed it off. I don't like it when sometimes he acted like as if nothing happened.
Well, I told Ayun this. Go ahead and smoke. If we were to get married and he still doesn't quit, I told him no babies. Be it a patch or contraceptive pills or whatever. Making sure no babies.
Dang it! Sometimes I can be too drama and too OTT. Haha.
Love,
nUr
P/S Dang it! Soon I'll be one year... younger... hahahah...
But I think there was one mistake I made and I regret it. And that mistake was to let my Ayun smoke. He asked me permission to smoke in front of me. I was fed-up, dah malas nak layan, this and that, I said go ahead. It was all because I malas nak layan. Dah malas nak care. From 1 to 2. Then that one day, 4 sticks. Like half an hour apart? My fault. I should have been strict.
I still don't like it when Ayun smokes in front of me. I will be mad if I saw him smoke or saw a cig pack inside his pocket or under the bike's seat. Bile kene tegur je, nanti boring ngan orang. It shows that I still care right? Since sometimes he doesn't care about howI feel, then I think should stop caring. Sometimes he just brushed it off. I don't like it when sometimes he acted like as if nothing happened.
Well, I told Ayun this. Go ahead and smoke. If we were to get married and he still doesn't quit, I told him no babies. Be it a patch or contraceptive pills or whatever. Making sure no babies.
Dang it! Sometimes I can be too drama and too OTT. Haha.
Love,
nUr
P/S Dang it! Soon I'll be one year... younger... hahahah...
Monday, January 26, 2009
The Importance of Family Bond
Now then I realize how important family bonding is especially with your siblings. So much had happened recently. While your parents are still alive, it is them that keep the family together. And when they no longer around, what's left is you and your siblings. If you're not close with your siblings, to whom you going to turn to when there's problem? When there's a close relationship between you and your siblings, you can share any problems with them, doesn't matter whether it's a shameful thing. They will be there to help you find or solve a problem. Always be there with your family through the good as well as the bad times.
I miss my maternal grandparents. They were always independent. Not wanting to be a burden to their children. But at the same time I'm glad that they're gone because they don't have to go through the 'anak derhaka' thingy and seeing what had happened recently. Nenek gemuk I missed the most. I really wish she was here. But I can only pray for her. Well, sometimes it's not a good thing to miss someone who has left us too much. Like me, every where I go, every old woman I see, she will reminds me of nenek. I mean, like last week, I was this old lady, looked exactly like nenek. I was shock. I was like, 'Oh my God. Nenek still alive?'. I istighfar bynk2. Tak baik pikir gitu. Yang pergi tu sudah.
So, please treasure every moment with your loved ones. Make that every second a memorable one. You'll never know when they are going to leave you. Only Allah.
"A family that sticks together, stays together"
Love,
nUr
I miss my maternal grandparents. They were always independent. Not wanting to be a burden to their children. But at the same time I'm glad that they're gone because they don't have to go through the 'anak derhaka' thingy and seeing what had happened recently. Nenek gemuk I missed the most. I really wish she was here. But I can only pray for her. Well, sometimes it's not a good thing to miss someone who has left us too much. Like me, every where I go, every old woman I see, she will reminds me of nenek. I mean, like last week, I was this old lady, looked exactly like nenek. I was shock. I was like, 'Oh my God. Nenek still alive?'. I istighfar bynk2. Tak baik pikir gitu. Yang pergi tu sudah.
So, please treasure every moment with your loved ones. Make that every second a memorable one. You'll never know when they are going to leave you. Only Allah.
"A family that sticks together, stays together"
Love,
nUr
Sunday, January 11, 2009
It's OK to fall harder
So I had my first motorbike pract today. Hhhmmmm... yesterday. It was so funny I tell you. But I'm gonna tell you this first. My instructor said I was the best one among the group. Hehehe. There's 2 girls and the rest are guys. She said she gonna have me do the rounding first to make the guys feel paiseh. Maybe because of my class 3 license, that's why I know to look far. Ok, so it was only my first practical. As it will go up, that's where the difficulty comes.
My weakness has to be my balancing. I fall quite a number of times. I always fall at the braking part. Throttle off, clutch in, foot broke then slowly hand brake then left leg down. That's the part when I will suddenly lose my balance. But then I'm not afraid of fallng at all. I don't like guys to see girls as a sign of weakness so when I fall, I laughed. Because I found it funny. And I don't feel embarrassed or anything like that or people want to laugh or whatever. Then my lady instructor told me, "It's ok to fall harder, you'll get better." My mainstand sucks too. My reverse... hahah... I can't reverse. My instructuor had to push me. Then this guy was like looking at me reversing. Kena scolded by the instructor. I admit when I reverse, the bike doesn't even move. And our group doesn't listen to instructions properly.
My back hurts. Should be because of my pract. Must apply the correct technique. Then went to play pool with Ayun, Iman and Shidah. I first try of playing pool. Also funny. Ball went out. Hahaha... I suck.
Thanks Ayun! For the day out.
Love,
nUr
My weakness has to be my balancing. I fall quite a number of times. I always fall at the braking part. Throttle off, clutch in, foot broke then slowly hand brake then left leg down. That's the part when I will suddenly lose my balance. But then I'm not afraid of fallng at all. I don't like guys to see girls as a sign of weakness so when I fall, I laughed. Because I found it funny. And I don't feel embarrassed or anything like that or people want to laugh or whatever. Then my lady instructor told me, "It's ok to fall harder, you'll get better." My mainstand sucks too. My reverse... hahah... I can't reverse. My instructuor had to push me. Then this guy was like looking at me reversing. Kena scolded by the instructor. I admit when I reverse, the bike doesn't even move. And our group doesn't listen to instructions properly.
My back hurts. Should be because of my pract. Must apply the correct technique. Then went to play pool with Ayun, Iman and Shidah. I first try of playing pool. Also funny. Ball went out. Hahaha... I suck.
Thanks Ayun! For the day out.
Love,
nUr
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