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In school. Finishing my project. Wanted to take a rest first. I'm gonna be very busy. No holidays for me. Got ITP at Tanjong Pagar at some interior design company.

My birthday coming soon. And my boyfriend is going oversea. A last minute thing. So no celebration with him. If anyone had a plan and ask me along, let's say on 2 March, I will turn that person down flatly. No second thought. Why? Because it's my boyfriend's birthday. I won't say much. But it just that girls do take anniversaries and birthdays seriously. Sometimes. So I have a plan of my own.

So, don't expect me to go out before or after my birthday. Only exceptional to my girlfriends. I think I sacrifice my time, work and school alot. I know no one asked me to. So, I'm glad for my second year, I'll be very busy. I'll be working from Monday to Saturday, 9am to 6pm. Keep my mind occupy. And my boyfriend can have many, many more times with his friends. Double and triple the times.

See, the problem with me is that it's so hard for me to communicate with my boyfriend. I don't know why it's hard for me to tell him how I felt. Maybe I'm just too tired or just too lazy or hate if there's an argument. Poor Ayun. Then he will be clueless as to why I'm mad at him. Now I know why. Because if I told and be mad at him, it will still be the same. This thing will happen all over again. All he can say is sorry and blah blah blah. He only talk the talk but I need him to walk the talk. So why waste energy being mad.

So this tells me that I have to appreciate my friends. If you a girl, do appreciate your GIRLFRIENDS!! Heck care about your boyfriend. When anything goes wrong, it's your GIRLFRIENDS that will be there for you. Remember, your GIRLFRIENDS!!!! I'm reminding myself too so in future I won't abandon my GIRLFRIENDS for my boyfriend.

Love,
nUr