Regrets

Never regret the mistakes you made. Because without it, you will never learn. So whenever I think back, no matter what mistakes or whatever decisions I made, I learn from it.

But I think there was one mistake I made and I regret it. And that mistake was to let my Ayun smoke. He asked me permission to smoke in front of me. I was fed-up, dah malas nak layan, this and that, I said go ahead. It was all because I malas nak layan. Dah malas nak care. From 1 to 2. Then that one day, 4 sticks. Like half an hour apart? My fault. I should have been strict.

I still don't like it when Ayun smokes in front of me. I will be mad if I saw him smoke or saw a cig pack inside his pocket or under the bike's seat. Bile kene tegur je, nanti boring ngan orang. It shows that I still care right? Since sometimes he doesn't care about howI feel, then I think should stop caring. Sometimes he just brushed it off. I don't like it when sometimes he acted like as if nothing happened.

Well, I told Ayun this. Go ahead and smoke. If we were to get married and he still doesn't quit, I told him no babies. Be it a patch or contraceptive pills or whatever. Making sure no babies.

Dang it! Sometimes I can be too drama and too OTT. Haha.

Love,
nUr

P/S Dang it! Soon I'll be one year... younger... hahahah...