Nur is Nur. Nur won't be a hypocrite. Nur don't want people to see her and then restrict to things. Nur is a very open-minded person. You can talk just about ANYTHING to Nur. Just because Nur pakai tudung, you want to say something and oops... because Nur is there. Nur doesn't care. Nur punye wildness masih ade. You wanna talk dirty, fine. Nur still swears and curses and whatever not.

But, Nur knows how to behave in public. And Nur hates it when some makciks looked and stared and all that. As if your anak tu baik sangat. Like Nur said, Nur won't be a hypocrite. Nur can hold her boyfriend's hand, but if some guy wants to shake her hand... shake je ah.

Not all orang yang pakai tudung tu baik or alim. Or yang tak pakai tudung tu jahat. Ingat orang balik dari haji tu iman dier kuat ke? Ahklak dier baik ke? Ikhlas ke? Nur started to wear tudung like 6 years ago. Although it's quite a long time, but Nur still learning. Papa went for pilgrimage and asked Nur to wear tudung, which Nur wore tak iklhas. It took Nur like 2 years to really opened up and sincere about wearing tudung. Nur studied in circular school so Nur punye perangai tu masih ade. Nur is still learning. Sometimes nak kuatkan iman but nampaknye syaitan menang. Kadang2 solat pun tertinggal. Nak go kedai bawah, Nur tak kai tudung.

So that's why Nur don't want to judge people. If you saw orang pakai tudung tu cukur kening, don't judge or think like, "Pakai tudung pun cukur kening." Who knows she was like that before pakai tudung. But that ain't Nur. Nur plucked kening satu helai je, ish dosa Nur rase macam seluas laut. Still remember Nur went for photoshoot, then the makeup artiste makeup for Nur then asked Nur whether she can plucked Nur's eyebrow because she said the picture won't looked good. Nur mati-mati tak nak. The photos still look good. Wonders of pho-shop :) And Nur sometimes apply nail color. And Nur had seen some minah2 fairing apply it too. Nur's reason would be, menses.

Like Nur said, Nur is still learning. Every Sunday go religious class, sometimes it opened up Nur's mind and thinking. Biler dengar ustaz or ustazah bebual, sometimes you realized the sins that you had done, it's like whoa. We are still young, so people like us who went to circular school, their mindset is different from budak2 gi sekolah madrasah. Nur think ah. But whatever it is kan, it's never too late to repent.

Love,
nUr