Sedih

Left 1 more day to to end of Ramadan. Nenek was suppose to here in my house, sambut raye kat sini but dier pergi dulu. Kite ade mood nak raye then bile teringat nenek, mood hilang. So overall, we don't have that kind of mood to celebrate hari raya. It's going to be sunyi without nenek here. Nur rindu nenek lah. And the last thing Nur can do for nenek is mandi kan dier.

Besok lepas azan Maghgrib, sume ahli-ahli kubur akan kembali ke tempat asal. Confirm besok takbir, muke mesti basah. Crying lah. Syahdu kalau dengar takbir. Reasons because entah bile kite boleh jumpe Ramadan lagi and terkenang pade yang tiada.

Tomorrow after Maghrib ade kenduri arwah. Nenek nye 7 days. So fast. Nur still cannot believe that nenek dah meninggalkan kite sume. Nur cume boleh doakan untuk nenek and also atuk.

Now Nur is only left with 1 grandparent, paternal side. Nur is going to treasure every moment with every one, family, friends... all the loved ones.

So before ending, Nur di sini ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya kepada semua umat Islam di seluruh dunia. Kalau ade salah dan silap, harap maaf kan.

Puase Yok Yok

Tau tak sekarang orang yang paling Nur tak suke sape? Org yang tak puase. Tak puase tak pe lah. What Nur meant was that tak puase, you don't have to eat in front of people. Doesn't matter you're a man or woman, whatever your reasons, nak tunjuk terror ke, orang kafir tengok kite macam tu, tak malu ke? Kalau bukan dengan orang-orang kan, at least tau malu lah dengan Allah. Tau malu lah sikit dengan budak kecik yang berpuase. Tau malu lah sikit dengan orang yang bukan Islam, yang cube nak tau the feelings of fasting that they themselves fast.

Then you should also feels malu dengan Nur nie yang penat dapat tahan. And so that rider complaint penat lah, haus lah... whatever. Nak air ke nak makan, don't ever ask from Nur. Kalau nak dosa, jangan heret orang sekali. There's no way Nur is going to take food for orang yang tak puase. And then these colleagues also took their break. Depan mak je baik ke? It's so sad that you memperbodoh-bodohkan your very own parents.

And so it's your hal dengan Allah kan? Ok. Every Ramadhan it's always the same old same old.

Love,
nUr